i know there's sunshine behind that rain

seriously,i dont find it beautiful anymore.these feelings aren't beautiful anymore.i want to know why and how.okay,i know it's not easy for you to tell me but please i really want to know.and i do know it's easy for you to move on.it's very hard for me indeed.the flashback, songs, places, colours, everything.im learning to fucking let you go every fucking single day.do you know how much it hurts to see you flirting around, not able to know what you're doing, and to watch you go away.okay, you dont love me anymore.fine.terima doh.tak pe.at least try lah faham.it's not that fucking easy.sigh.and i know you're not mine, everything is not mine, i have to return it when the time comes.blaaaaaaaaa -.- susah lah pulak kan.whatever it is, i never hate you, what i've told you is crap -.- i really wish the feelings would go away.like seriously.i dont fucking want any of it anymore.cause i dont know,im just tired.i know you wouldnt understand.to be able to feel it for awhile is more than enough :) it was the best.thank youuuu.i really hope you'll read this,but if you dont, sokay.i just feel like fucking telling any fucking reader.

It's my birthday fucker :D

I loveeee today.
Mom woke me up, took my shower and then we had dim sum with my uncle and my aunty :D i love dim sum,like so much.

Then we went to SSF -.- mak aku kalau aku tak suruh berhenti beli,memang die tak nak berhenti.tak pe,dia suka.tak kacau hidup aku :D

Then balik zuhur kejap,then keluar pergi ou.FUCKING BLACKBERRY!i am so happy right now.jap,asal ou dah macam zoo tadi,aku tau lah public holiday,dah tak ada mall lain dah kat kl? -.-

Then went home,mandi semua bagai then pergi surau :)

I spent so much time with my mom today :D that's the best birthday present.i love you mom!like so much!she's the best.

Waktu ceramah, she asked me, "nanti kakak belikan barang yang mama minta macam handbag,..." "tak de hal lah ma,cakap je,kakak angkat".mak aku yang first die sebut handbag die -.- nanti kakak ada duit tak kisah lah mama minta apa kakak beli okayh :D oh plus,kakak doakan mama selalu!banyak!

I dont really care you didnt wish me on my birthday cause my mom is the best.ada kene mengena okay :D i love today!

YOU CAN SUCK MY BALLS!
macam aku ada :)

7 DEC 2010

AHMAD ARIF ASYRAF,kau mengada.HAHA.sarah bakarterima kasih lah ye :D

i dont really like my birthday.
1. my mom bought me a fucking BB.im happy.guess what?dia pergi kenduri kawan die esok instead of bringing me pergi jalan ke en.F
2. orang2 penting saya tak ingat ke birthday saya.BAPAK saya,MAK saya dah tido.AWESOMEEE.dan lain2.

my hero :D

HANDSOME HABIS HUSBAND I <3>

THIS IS MY SON :D

boo ya ka sha

HAHA.boo ya ka sha,during form 3,this was our favourite line.macam bodoh datang kat orang, "BOO YA KA SHA".random gile.

anyway,life is being a bitch.gile bosan weh.bangun subuh,sambung mimpi,ikut mama -.- geez,menarik tertarik doh rutin.lately,it is you that always came to my mind.macam F kan.biar je lah.flashback 2009 je kerja aku.agak agak duduk sorang,flashback je lah -.-

1. im not excited for my birthday.sebab tak ada orang macam kisah.YEAAAA.SUKA.
2. im not excited for london.sebab snow macam agak teruk,aku tak rasa nak jalan pun senang -.-

Awesomeness :D

Today was awesome.spent time with mom.woke up really early.then pergi bank in cheque.aku rasa semua bank kat malaysia aku pergi.publicbank,maybank,rhb bank,eon bank,cimb,ambank,jap AGRO bank pun aku pergi.agro bank ni kelapa sawit mak aku -.- kelapa sawit? -.- MBPJ pun pergi.lalu dewan sivik,awww,i miss festari and kak fiza.

Mom was really weird today,she forced me to learn semua benda yang die buat -.- pergi counter bank pun aku kene cakap -.- die duduk je.

Oh oh,ada nyonya ni,my mom parked right behind her car,then my mom pergi bayar bill.then i was looking at the other side,pandang2 nyonya tu macam nak makan orang.i was like,SORRY2 aunty,then aku pun gerak lah kereta.my mom keluar je,die pandang parking pandang kereta pandang parking balik,die tgk aku die buat muka tanda soal die,then aku gelak die gelak.nasib baik die tak marah.then ada lah lalu this lane,byk kereta,die pun reverse kereta,die ckp " ni kalau kakak ni habis semua kereta die langgar" , "maaaa -.-".

HAHA.i told my mom i want BB for birthday.and she agreed :D hoyeahh.she's the best.

Cant wait for 7dec :D
Siapa lah en orang first wish aku? :)
Last year yasmin iman.

Sarah bakar

Sarah,you need help.
You guys didnt get the joke.
Omg,i seriously couldnt stop laughing.

Woman,you and your boyfriend looks alike.HAHA.this is so funny.omg,the teeth too.you guys look great together :D